With the feelings of dispair in me I pray for strength. My mind slipping back into the feelings of neglect towards right yet wrong is not on my agenda. Seeing how easy it is to fall into the way of the devil. Needing baptism now after having spiritual revelation with the Lord. Phase 2 is needing the rebirth through water. Understanding this transformation is not complete. I urgently look forward to my water birth with the Lord. Being able to recognize myself slip and immediately follow it up with true prayer for strength brings me peace. For I know he Loves me and I know his son died for me. It will always mean that’s my brother since we have the same father. It will always comfort me to have faith in his forgiveness for it is eternal paradise. I shall not backslide easier said then done try easiest typed than written. I pray for strength in abundance! The Lord has blessed me with a new career. Through him I shall be successful. Only through him shall I walk always. Understand I shall continue to grow in my relationship with my Lord God through his word The Holy Bible to make sure the letters in red are the ones studied first and foremost. The lay for understanding for his children …Thank you Father for everything! I believe through you without any doubt. I will have glory and peace for eternity . Understanding I have a lot of growing to do, I look forward to a birth through water. For it is needed badly! My life will never go back to a life of sin ever through Yeshua. For it is washed clean get it now. So the process shall be continued forever and ever. I will put him !st and all my goals shall be put there for me for my children’s future if it is his will. All things be through his will always. Guide me Lord as I walk without fear. For your Love as is the most powerful. Continue to grow I say to myself . Learn peace and real love. Though my face shows no peace. Patience is what I seek my God shall always love me and hears my prayers. I have no worries yet need consistent reminders . Need my water birth! Baptize me Lord from the dispair.