Better to not speak

It is better to not speak than to utter conflict. Causes issues to become worst than before. Noone wins and no one is able to see the purpose behind screams, yelling, cursing, even anger. All attributes of a weak minded person. It takes effort to refrain from going off. While it takes nothing to open your mouth and give into what is bothering you. One requires no physical action but all mental refrain. The other requires all physical display and zero mental control. Listen to others as they show their anger and some shortly after apologize as if another person become of them. For they are right. It was. Yet that person is still within and has all the power to show themself. Apologies are like toiletpaper they get used to clean up the dirtiest of deeds just to be flushed and never remembered again. Like a hypocrite no one likes a often cryer or a unauthentic sorry person. An apology is good for once a year, not for every opportunity that your actions need cleaning up. Dont say your trying to change when your actions are the same. Dont claim the father is working on you when you have knowledge of your wrongs. Sounds like he has already done his part by revealing your wrongs to you. Free will shall never be taken away. Once you can see it, it is then time to begin to practice self control. Your actions are your heart not your words. So yes the father knows your heart and thats why he shall judge it. I pray that my personal self control matches that of the fathers will in my life. He has shown me that my past  is full of wickedness. So I cannot continue in the ways and claim hes working on me. NO!!! I need to work on me! He has done his part first off by sending his son to show the truth. To be sacrificed for sins before and after my time. For there is no knowledge of wisdom without that. Learning and studying past actions of corrupted leaders or ways of life to discourage a specific group through lies is not intended to bring you closer to Christ, but  push you further away. So your time to groom a relationship with him is invested in learning about the corruption that you already had knowledge existed before reading your letters or education on schemes and plans to keep you ignorant.