Ending of a beginning

My Lord is there any good left?? A separation for what seemed, because it has been just months  and it has transformed those of faith into those of senseless hope in flesh. My lord I pray for understanding yet I fear this comprehension is simply that there is no one to look to as an example. For there has never been other than your son our brother if we follow. I pray for this to be learned even more by me through realizing that we all are truly on the brink. The brink of realizing that our sins our actions are going to come up short. Standing tall in our things while being in Christ is shunned upon for it shows a perfections in us that shows a imperfection in the world. The world hates what is not of it. What is not corrupted for , how can any bond with being of sin, but we all are thats why we needed Christ people we will always fall. So look towards springing forward towards a better living spiritually. Boast on the truth that Christ is our saviour and nothing else. Live as honestly as you can for how hard of a explanation while to the Father to be involved in corruption while Christ appears. Is it too much to ask to not drink or smoke before church?? Is it truly too much to become the person that doesnt want to do those things?? My lord is there any good left? Any bit of good here on the earth. Anywhere?? Truthfully asking for answers to what seems impossible. The planet searches for a leader so who is seen as holy is but for you to see here. This is honestly the ending of a beginning and noone sees this, not family not friends not even myself some days. . Lord for 2014 feels like the ending of a beginning.