Anticipation seems like forever to the wicked, but to the faithful there aren’t any worries. The father shall give in due season what he plans. During your days take full advantage of the love and mercy he has already put in your life. Anxious to receive is to be patient for a bad gift. Deserving what is bad can be detrimental to the mental. Not able to see good gifts for you have opened yourself to who is always ready to give gifts of the superficial. Strings attached to them for you become the devils puppet in his amusement. Give patience to the lord. Wait on the lord. Do not ever look back for what is ahead is to be focused upon. You have been brought from those days as signs of love. Signs to be understood as not signs of believing but by faith alone. So many seek understanding without properly gaining the fabric of what true understanding is based upon. That is faith. The belief in things unseen but ‘trust” in the creator of their existence. Faith that Christ died for your sins faith your baptism is the acknowledgment of this and confessing with your mouth these things. Coming to the father with all your heart is simply being genuine. Yes this walk is difficult, yet there will be those who believe or say they do that will not like you for simple disbelief that the father would use you for his kingdom. You are but just a screw up in their eyes. There will be family who shall see you as same. This wisdom is sorrowful. The enemy is not always disbelievers it usually comes directly from the same family tree you are from. Do not become discouraged for you have gone through being liked as well as disliked. You have been talked about slandered ,laughed at ,and cursed at and disregared. Your basic fabric never changed it just became more prominent. Always was instilled ,it became recognized by its true multitude. Pass down this truth to your children just as other religions do. So many false teachings that have more discipline than the one of truth. Instill Christ into the hearts of the children and God willing they live long enough to where it becomes their fabric. Their makeup to say some day to their child, I remember your Grandfather or Grandmother would pray with us and say have faith. Christ is the truth. There is but one so all the stories and teachings of the world are of the multitude, for they are lies and lies can use partial truths to create true lies in different countries that come to yours like Arnold. So like he would say ‘get down” before one of those shots hit you!!! Concern yourself with truth and with it no worry can exist.